The Dawkter's Wife is In

He's leaving me

2006-07-12T13:34:00.000-07:00

The Dawkter is leaving me. This means I leave this blog. Maybe I'll make another one.

Oooooh, COMMENTS!

2006-07-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

I got so excited at work this morning to see COMMENTS in my inbox from here. I'm glad that someone is reading. :) I'm hoping to start using this more because I feel it's a bit more anonymous and secretive than my other online journal elsewhere. It's comforting to know that very few people know about this place ... however, I hope to make some new friends here eventually.

Orientation for the Dawkter starts August 15th. He'll have a couple days there, then the weekend off (where I expect he'll want to go out with some new classmates ... and I will begin preparing myself now for that) and then school starts fully right afterwards. I'm so excited for him, yet I'm incredibly nervous as well. It's hard to admit that I'm going to need help through this time for myself.

A close friend suggested (in a comment, no less ... wheee ... can you tell I'm amused by the comments section?) that I take a class for myself. She's right that I have tons of interests and could easily find something to take, and so I may just do that. It's not too late to take an academic class in the fall (where I would actually get a tuition discount because of working within the university system), or I could probably find a creative class that I could take. OR I could take an academic class in writing that would allow me to use the creative side that I have. I will have to look into it more. The only thing that holds me back is some social anxiety that I have. It's not mild, but it's not severe enough to be severe in my opinion; what's in the middle? I have a hard time making new friends in person, I enjoy being alone most of the time, the idea of being graded on my writing scares the shit out of me; but we'll see. Maybe I could take it as an audit course first to do it without being graded. *nodding*

Wow ... this post has turned into a me-me-me post ... but I guess this is mine-mine-mine so I can write what I want to. *shrug*

What do I plan on doing in the next for the next four years?
- take at least a class a year (thank you LP)
- finish learning to knit (I struggle to get that 2nd needle worked in)
- work my butt off at work to make things easier at home
- hang out with at least one in-person friend a week doing something out of the house ... coffee ... tea ... a movie ... whatever ... just GET OUT!
- rewrite my childhood book, have it illustrated and see about doing something with it (the explanation to this, I'll save for another post)

I'm sure I'll add to my list, but it's almost time for me to clock in here at work so I'm off for now. :)

Am I getting used to this?

2006-07-04T11:21:00.000-07:00

He's already gone alot, and I'm really getting used to it ... this is a weird feeling.

It has begun

2006-06-26T20:53:00.000-07:00

*sigh*
I love the Dawkter ... and I know that he loves me, but sometimes, I need him to show me more. I really wish I believed that this trek was going to be easier, but I know that it's about to kill me. I just have to keep myself together ... concentrate on myself ... take care of myself ... and know that when the storm passes, the sun will shine brighter because of it.
Keep the Dawkter & I in your thoughts for a while ... life is hard and school hasn't even really started.

How many 0's go behind that 5?

2006-06-13T20:13:00.000-07:00

It's no wonder that medical school applications & enrollment are down.

We got our financial aid information today ... and it could end up that in four years we'll have about $500,000 in medical school loans to pay back. Yes, HALF A MILLION DOLLARS. Half of $1,000,000!!! *dies* *dies again* *dies the third time in a day* Shit. It scares me ... but I know that we'll make it ... because we have to ... and I've already started doing my research at work to see how I can quickly get promoted and therefore make more money. It shouldn't be too hard. I've also started doing research on rural health scholarships. Oregon, especially, has quite a few. "Here, we'll give you half a million dollars for four years, and then you work in bumfuckOregon for four years and we'll forgive your loans. Oh, and we'll pay you for those four years of work." Uhm, okay. The only catch??? I'd have to live in BUMFUCKOREGON for four years. *rolls her eyes* For half million free dollars, I think I could handle that though.

Calling Registration

2006-06-10T18:14:00.000-07:00

So, the Dawkter has been accepted to medical school. I can't find any blogs/journals about being the spouse of a med school student, so I decided I'll start my own.